• Painful Week

    Date: 2011.06.17 | Category: Baby, Family, Health, Me, Sarah, Whoops | Tags:

    This has been a rough week. There was an incident Monday where my distraction resulted in my daughter falling and hitting her head in the grocery store in front of everyone, their mama and their kids. Not only was I horrified at myself and beyond upset and worried about my daughter, but I was supremely embarrassed and worried that Child Protective Services would be called on us. Fortunately the fall was a short one (less than a foot and she went feet first) and Sarah was ok. We called the pediatrician as soon as I got home. Turns out that as long as she never lost consciousness or started vomiting she was pretty much ok. After all, she assured me, babies are extremely flexible and resilient.

    I still couldn’t stop beating myself up about it though, telling Mark over and over about what a terrible mother I was. He was amazing though. He managed to calm my hysterical self down while holding Sarah, making her laugh and talking to the nurse on the phone.

    I wasn’t going to share this because I was so horrified with myself. But after talking to my mom, my pediatrician and a couple of my mommy friends, it turns out every mom has a story about that time their baby hit their head and they freaked out. Moms who have fallen while carrying their kids, kids who fell off of something, kids who flipped their walkers. And all said the same thing, “I brought her into this world, and I thought for sure I was about to be the one who took her out.” They told me about the guilt and their thoughts, the same things I went through. And it made me feel better and more aware. I am so thankful she’s ok and it could have been much worse.

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    To make matters worse, Sarah had to get her first round of shots Wednesday. Talk about breaking my heart. She was smiling and putting on  a show for the doctor and then they put shots in her poor little thighs. Of course she screamed her head off and was a groggy, grumpy girl the rest of the day.

    We did find out  that she’s tall (no big surprise there). 23.5 inches, 90th percentile. She weighed in at 11lbs, 9oz and was 75th percentile for weight and head circumference.*

    We also discussed “the fall.”

    I have to admit I was scared my pediatrician was going to lecture me about being an awful parent and tell me about horrible consequences, etc. But she was amazing. She handed me the tissue box while I told her what happened, then told me about her own daughter hitting her head when she was 18 months old. She looked Sarah over, pronounced her as “perfect from head to toe” and said she wasn’t worried about that short little fall at all.

    Thank God.

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    * We celebrated Sarah’s growth by dancing to this song when we got home.

    You’re welcome.